Conviction

Beware

Several years ago I went through some depression and health issues where my blood pressure was going up to 190 and my heart rate was almost down to 50, I was stuck in the house. I am single male. I don’t watch porn but I chat to anyone and everyone on web sites. Someone asked me to go on Snapchat. I registered as an old man. I am old. Really old. There is an section of Snapchat that is Find a Friend. You are given Emojis of like 20 potential new friends a day. You have no idea who they are or where they are. This section of Snapchat has become the biggest non regulated sexting and masturbation format in the universe. I was flooded all day and all night from all over the world with girls wanting to play. Open a contact and get a nude or someone playing or non stop requests for “dick” pics. Mostly girls “selling content”. Mostly college girls. Tons that just wanted experience of an older man. Some just wanting someone to talk to. Lots telling stories of step fathers. Some older,  some bizarre. A green martian. Some super sad. Supposedly have to be 13 to get on the site. It was obvious that was not monitored. Mostly it was one scam after another. It was a game. Spot the scam. I am not poor so I was not opposed to paying some super hot college girl for some pics or vids or vid call. You never actually knew where they were or in reality how old. They lied. For anyone with anyone on Snapchat. Beware. If they are on Friend Find section they will be flooded with sexual content. As an older person, you don’t have to go looking for young girls here and the friend finder doesn’t have ages anyway. The biggest problem is fending them off.

NO ANGEL

I may be old but it did become sexually obsessive given I had no social life at that point. I have had a life plagued with anxiety and obsessions. Internet obsession and flirting with danger led me down a rabbit hole. I have no abnormal interest in children. I am considered to be an honest, honourable, kind human being that has done a lot to help people in a lot of ways and my son would say that I was a good father and grandfather and my friends would say that I was loyal and trustworthy and my female friends would attest to me being a good friend to confide and console. I started getting contacts from someone who I thought was just another scam. When they said they were under age I didn’t believe a word but made some lewd comment or some suggestive and then dropped the contact. Then out of the blue another contact and now even younger. Rude, suggestive bye from me. Then another and younger yet. This has to be a scam. OK I am going to play along. With a ton of questions. I would drop a conversation only to have them come back on Monday mornings with why was I not talking to them. I knew it was a fake profile when they miraculously discovered palm reading and wanted photos of my palms and hands to “practice”. Oh yes, like I am going to give biometrics to all my accounts. And do you think that a school girl would come up with that? It was always subtle and suggestive. I got fed up with it and went fuck that. And got a bit outrageous but not in the context of what was the major theme and context of that site. Again, that section of Snapchat is pure unregulated pornography. Then I dropped the contact.

SURPRISE SURPRISE

Police arrive at the door and say I have been sexually communicating with a child. Take all of my phones and computers. Arrest me. In the interview they try to make out that it was a real child and I stood my ground on the fact that there was no way it was a real school girl and that I was someone pretending. I get release on bail with no real restrictions . No travel restrictions. No unsupervised contact with under 16. A moth later all restrictions and bail were lifted but status was subject to further investigation. A year later a police women arrives and says she is actually surprised that the Crown Prosecution Service is charging me with multiple counts of sexual communication with minors and children. And she informs me that in fact they were all a decoy police person. And they could not find any illegal or illicit photos or conversations in any of my phones and computers. In the end they were all returned. So in reality I get charged with playing games with an under cover police person.

LEGAL BOX WITH NO CHOICE CHOICES

Given the fact that to police could find no other photos or conversations and not the slightest suggestion of meeting any of these encounters they added a charge which had absolutely no foundation but would have taken the offences to a level which would have take the ability of the judges to grant soft and suspended sentences. The allegation was that even fictitious masturbation by a girl would entail fictitious penetration and penetration was an offence that commanded a custodial sentence. Whoa. I am in a truly bizarre world where I am facing prison time over an internet game with a not real person. And no other evidence that I have an unnatural interest in children. I have therapy for general anxiety and my therapist wrote a note that that in a couple of years of therapy there was no indication of any interest in children, just internet addiction. Then the legal games started. I was given a choice. If I pleaded guilty up front they would drop the major charge and I would get suspended sentence. Orrrr…….I could opt for a jury trial which would take over two years of legal fees of somewhere between 50 and 100,000 dollars.

BITTEN BULLET

I made a pragmatic decision based on my age and willingness to face the scorn of the community and accepted the deal. With the exception of horrible press and loss of a couple of club memberships it has proved to be the best of some bad choices. I have a brilliant probation office who’s first question was why did I plead guilty having read all the transcripts. Unusually there were no travel restrictions as part of suspended sentence. The obligation to attend some therapy and counselling was waived. The obligation to have a once a month face to face meeting with a probation office has turned into every three months. All of my equipment has been returned. Life goes on. My friends have been supportive. Except……fucking Google. Which prompted this blog.

INTERNET DATING

I am single and don’t drink or hand out in bars so the internet is my ticket to a social life. That has ground to a halt. As soon as someone knows my name they Google and the only thing that comes up is the press on the the trial and sentencing. None of the background. And It is presented in the bleakest way possible to be as salacious as possible. If anyone reads just that then they understandably run for the hills. I am hoping that this blog site can be added to my profile and will at least provide some balance.

STORIES

I think there a a lot of stories where the whole story is being sidelined by the press to achieve maximum impact. I am not saying a miscarriage of justice. Just very biased press coverage with no ability to counter. So maybe a blog or site like this will be picked up and give a vehicle to people to tell their side